This is a message in a bottle that I hope you'll find one day.
This is a love note of the deepest kind that I know you'll stumble onto by accident when you'll need it most.
I'm putting it out here because I can and because I don't know how else to leave it.
First, I love you. I've always loved you. I've always known you would exist and be incredible and that is exactly who you are.
You are amazing and beautiful and talented and fragile and wonderful.
You are the most delicate of flowers and the strongest of people.
You are an iridescent precious gem and only ever need to compete against one person. Love whom you love and be who you are and know that you always have a home and are never alone.
Second, of fear I need you to know that nothing is yours to punish yourself for. If somebody (especially me) says that you are hurting them, that you are going to cause them to be in pain or anything like that, or worse, it only means please stop. But you are not responsible for anything beyond that...even if you didn't stop because you didn't want to or you couldn't. You are not God. You are not destiny or the angle of death or anything insanely crazy like that.
Be responsible but do not carry guilt.
You are a good person and have a fire inside you that is beautiful and you are wonderful and I love you always.
You existed long before you were born and will exist long after I die. You were meant to be exactly who you are and yours is to love those who deserve your love. You know who they are. For all the rest, as hard as it may be to turn and walk away: once is their fault, twice is yours.
Remember that the right answer when anybody asks you "who do you love" is first and always "me" because without loving yourself how can you ever truly love anybody else? I love me and that is why I love you because you are all the best of me that is within my power to give you. But I am not you. You are greater than the people who made you.
I am by far not your only fan but I can tell you that I have been in awe of you for longer than anybody else. You are amazing and I am grateful that you chose me. Thank you, baby.
l.f.e.
y.g.m.
