Life is awfully short. This is a fact even when you are waiting for what may seem like forever. Before you blink it was yesterday and then even decades ago.
Today, my arm feels numb. An aftershock from my heart tensing up just from the hint of an impending conversation that I did not want to have. A couple of days ago I looked at a photograph taken while I was talking and couldn't believe how old and tired I looked.
The past year has been rough. I know why and at the same time have to wonder if it is worth it. I'm committed now though. So, I have to follow through and all the while have to wonder if I'll last. The undertaking seems to be taking its toll.
Still, I have to keep doing it. This is one of those defining moments. I could stop but I'd be passing up what really is a chance of a lifetime. These are the opportunities you either take or don't and things you'll never likely regret.
I'm starting to worry about money though. Even dreams take financing. That and, as a friend likes to say, bandwidth. I'm low on bandwidth. I need help. I know this. The trick is to find the right help for the right price. Free costs too much and paid is something that is coming ... hopefully.
Anybody got a buck to spare for a dream? That way I can hire some elves.
